How I've changed in a year.

Today is my last day of being 15, which is kinda scary if you think about it. I've been 15 for an entire year and through that year I have changed.... a lot. And now I'm leaving 15 behind, like I'm shedding a skin or something. The weird part is I'm still not used to being 15, I still sometimes say I'm 14. So how am I going to get used to 16?! Anyway...As I was thinking all these scary thoughts, it really occurred to me how much I have changed in the past year and so, as usual, I made a list.

1. I've become less shy. This is mainly thanks to two things: Camp and Whaleton. Camp really gave me that push I needed when I was 14, but when I was 15? I realized that those people are crazy and weird and I love them so much for it. I'll never forget sing "All About That Bass" in the halls, swapping gossip in the bathrooms, and shipping all the campers. The second person, Whaleton, really taught me the power of friendship as cheesy as that sounds. She taught me that trust in a friendship isn't something to be feared, but something that really makes life worthwhile. She taught me that having someone who is so ridiculously close to you is the best thing in the world.
2. I've become more awkward. More socially awkward. If I'm intimidated by someone or particularly nervous around them, then I become an awkward turtle. Just completely shut down into idiot land.
3. I've learned to love hugs. "My name is Catherine and I like warm hugs!" is a sentence that I would have never said a year ago. I hated when people touched me and for the most part I still do. But I have learned that hugs really are awesome and they really give you a sense of love and affection. (This is all thanks to being forced into hugs for many years. It's like exposure therapy.
4. I can handle life. Life used to be this big scary thing that I couldn't handle most of the time. I ignored Life. I'm covering my ears like a kid, when it's words mean nothing I go "la la la". I'm turn up the volume as it speaks, cause if my heart can't stop it, I'll find a way to block it, I'll go "la la la." (Sorry I had to.) But now I can look Life in the eye and say "You still scare the out of me, but I'm going to persevere to the end."
5. I've learned that the little things are what count. The tiny things that make my day are the things that add up in the end. A sweet compliment from someone I love, hearing my favorite song on the radio, dancing with friends to said song, baking with friends, watching movies with friends, shopping with friends.... FRIENDS JUST MAKE LIFE, OKAY?
   

Kat.

My Dating Profile

Because I'm deathly* ill right now, and when I'm deathly ill I spend the entire day watching YouTube videos, I happened to stumbled across Emma Blackery's Dating Profile Tag. And yes, this is a technically YouTube tag, but I believe in equality for all types of internet-ness!!

Also because I'm not in a relationship and most likely won't be in one in the near future, I've answered these questions with more of a friendship kind of relationship view.

1. Do you believe in love at first sight?
   No, I don't. I think it's completely possible to be attracted to someone at first sight, but love isn't something that can be determined within a single glance.
2. What do you do for fun?
   I....internet? And use nouns as verbs.
3. Do you want/do you have any children?
   I would love kids!....Way way way way in the future. Obviously I want to be married and have a good income and all that stuff, but also I would like to be able to experience crazy and amazing things before I have a kid. Is that selfish of me? To want to live a little before I have to settle down?
4. What are you looking for in a relationship?
   HONESTY. In every kind of relationship. For some reason, even if the knowledge hurts, I just need people to completely honest with me. And not honest about just themselves, but honest about me. Like every little thing I do that annoys you? I want to know. That thing I said months ago that hurt your feelings even just a little? I want to know. What your favorite ice cream flavor is? I NEED to know. I also value trust and, surprisingly, affection. That is something I found out recently about myself is that I actually like affection now, I used to hate it, but now physical and emotional affection from my family and friends is much appreciated.
5. What is the one thing about yourself that you would like me to know?
   I have an addiction to buying books.
6. If you won a lottery, how would you spend your millions?
   I'd go to Disney World. Like a proper trip that lasts a week and a half and I go do EVERYTHING. It's a bit of a stupid thing to wish for, but ever since I was younger I've wanted to go to Disney World. I would also buy the lot that is next door to me, tear down the old house and completely rebuild it. It would be three stories high with a Jane Austen look to it, and I'd have secret rooms and corridors and plenty of nooks and crannies for reading and bookshelves! Oh, I'd have to many bookshelves and they'd all be overflowing with books!
   
   Oh and I'd get a two kittens, one named Darcy and one named Lizzie. 
7. Which was the first crush you ever had?
   Hmmmm...I honestly don't really remember. I guess it would probably be Nathan, the older brother of one of my oldest friends. Mostly because I know I did have a crush on him for like a week and that's the earliest I remember... Well to be perfectly honest, it was most likely a guy who is now my best friend, but I really don't remember.
8. You have got six months to live, what will you do first?
   First thing? Quit school and go travel the world. And I'd finally get the courage to do and say the things I've always been thinking.
9. Are you a morning person or a night person?
   It depends on who I'm with. If I'm with Whaleton, then we go to bed rather early (at least for me) and then wake up early and make breakfast. Normally? Totally a night owl.
10. If you have friends coming over, what would you cook?
    Well obviously it would depend on when and why they were coming over, but if it was just to relax and watch movies and stuff, I would make these amazing rice krispie treats that have double the butter and the butter is browned and all the marshmallows are browned too and it's HEAVENLY.
11. If you could travel back through time, what single mistake would you correct in life?
    Hmmmm....So many... I couldn't choose.
12. Where do you see yourself in five years time?
    Let's say for the sake of argument that I'm 16 now, I'd be 21 and probably still in college and hopefully in a meaningful relationship.

And there we have it! In case you want to do this tag, here are the list of questions to make it easier for you.

Do you believe in love at first sight?

What do you do for fun?

Do you want/do you have any children?

What are you looking for in a relationship?

What is the one thing about yourself that you would like me to know?

If you won a lottery, how would you spend your millions?

Which was the first crush you ever had?

You have got six months to live, what will you do first?

Are you a morning person or a night person?

If you have friends coming over, what would you cook?

If you could travel back through time, what single mistake would you correct in life?

Where do you see yourself in five years time?

I really recommend doing this because it's actually pretty insightful.

In other words...

DO IT.

DO IT NOW.

DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IT.

Kat
*And by deathly ill I mean I have a cold.

Oh and yes, I did update my blog by just putting new font and a new picture of books behind it.

Cause that's how I roll.

Texts I sent Whaleton while watching Twilight.

I decided that I need to waste two hours of my life and watch Twilight.
Bit of backstory: most of my family is at co-op which means that I had to stay downstairs with the youngest kids who stayed home because that are sick. My dad is also home and in the same room as me as I watch Twilight. He, needless to say, didn't know I was watching Twilight and I wasn't exactly hiding it, but just not broadcasting my evil doings.

As I began I decided to bombard Whaleton with texts about the movie and I have edited them for *ahem* viewing purposes.


ME: I'm watching Twilight because I'm bored and I'm going to send you updates.

OK So, so far all Bella says is "Uh...oh....ummm...humm....gahhh....ahhhh."

And there is definitely tension between Bella and Edward, but like awkward tension, not romantic.

And Edward is really awkward

but like kinda gorgeous

I may have standards, but I'm not blind.

OK so like how does no one question why the Cullens aRE SO PALE

WHY IS EVERYONE SO AWKWARD

LIKE WHAT'S UP IS THERE SOMETHING IN THE DRINKING WATER.

God he is so rude,

like just slap him already Bella.

OK Edward just saved her from potential rapists

"You don't know what they were thinking."

I'M PRETTY SURE SHE KNOWS WHAT THEY WERE THINKING

THEY WEREN'T GOING TO INVITE HER TO A TEA PARTY.

IS IT WEIRD I MIGHT BE GETTING A LITTLE INTO THIS

LIKE HE ASKS HER TO DINNER AND I'M LIKE "OOHHHHHHH FINALLY."

OK he's kinda cute

KINDA

Bella is still a terrible character

I JUST REALIZED THAT I'M DRINKING RED CRANBERRY JUICE WHILE I'M WATCHING A MOVIE ABOUT VAMPIRES

KISS KISS KISS KISS KISS

GOD NO WHAT AM I DOING

STOP GETTING INTO THIS CATHERINE

Doctor: He was killed by an.....animal attack *looks at Edward knowingly*

Bella: Oh my god, is it the same animal that killed that other guy?

Doctor: Most likely *looks at Edward*

Bella: Oh my god, I can't believe it.

Doctor: I know *looks at Edward*

SUBTLE DUDE REAL SUBTLE

SO SHE FINALLY FIGURED IT OUT

Ok so Edward has some awesome coats.

random fact

but totally true

Did....did they just SKIP SCHOOL?!

HOW DO YOU EXPECT TO GET INTO VAMPIRE COLLEGE IF YOU SKIP SCHOOL.

God, I hate teenagers....

OK the cinematography of this movie is terrible

VAMPIRE FINALLY SHE SAID IT HE IS A VAMPIRE

"are you afraid?"

"no"

You're an idiot Bella

AND NOW HE IS RUNNING SUPER FAST WITH HER ON HIS BACK

I HATE THIS MOVIE

*Edward shows sparkly skin*

Bella: You're beautiful.

Me out loud: Oh God why.

I may have forgotten to mention that I'm watching it downstairs in the same room as my dad so say "Oh God why." out loud is not a good idea

Edward: I've killed people.

Bella: It doesn't matter.

Me OUT LOUD AGAIN: IT KINDA DOES MATTER.

Dad is getting suspicious....

Bella: I'm not afraid of you.

Edward: You blind bitch? I a killa.

GHETTO TWILIGHT I NEED IT IN MY LIFE NOW

I JUST REALIZED THAT EDWARD HAS NICHOLAS' SMILE. YOUR NICHOLAS HAS A VAMPIRE SMILE.

YOU MUST KILL HIM WITH FIRE NOW, WE HAVE PROOF THAT HE IS VAMPIRE BECAUSE HE HAS A SMILE LIKE ONE.

I THINK I'M ON TEAM JACOB

CAUSE JACOB IS SERIOUSLY CUTE TOO

AND HE IS LIKE MORE NORMAL

The effects are terrible.

OK that's it. I'm halfway done and I'm giving up until later. This movie will be the death of me.

TWO HOURS LATER

Started it up again.

OK so Bella's vegetarian diet is annoying me, SHE COULD HAVE STEAK FOR GOD'S SAKE BUT INSTEAD SHE HAS A SALAD?

OK he is leaning in

is he going to kiss her or eat her

I will let you know

kissing apparently

and the worst kiss of all time too

I can hear their mouths squishing

Yeah so telling your dad you are dating a guy while he is cleaning a gun is not a good idea

OMG HE COCKED HIS GUN AND SAID "BRING HIM IN" HAHAHAHA I LOVE THIS GUY

BEST CHARACTER

SO she is not at all creeped out by the words "You are my life now."?

As the minutes go by Bella gets stupider and stupider

WHOA THIS ENDING THO

WAS NOT EXPECTING THIS

When your vampire boyfriend tells you to leave.....YOU LEAVE FOR GOD SAKES

Also why does no one ever use the more traditional methods of killing vampires what happened there.

EVEN THOUGH EDWARD HAS LIVED FOR LIKE 700 YEARS HE APPARENTLY NEVER LEARNED TO KISS.

TOO MUCH SQUISHING.

BELLA HAS THE BEST DAD EVER

OHHHHHH TENSION BETWEEN EDWARD AND JACOB

BELLA'S DRESS JUST CHANGED COLORS BETWEEN SCENES

This movie has ruined "Flightless Bird, American Mouth" for me.

This movie has ruined a lot of things for me

LIKE RELATIONSHIPS

OH JUST KISS ALREADY

THE SEXUAL TENSION IS KILLING ME

FINALLY

ANNNNNNND EDWARD STILL CAN'T KISS PROPERLY.

IF I CAN HEAR YOUR MOUTHS SMACK, IT'S NOT A GOOD SIGN.

THIS MOVIE WAS DIRECTED BY A CATHERINE.

YOU, MA'AM RUIN THE GOOD NAMES OF CATHERINES.

I'm just going to go burn my eyes out now

and then write a blog post about this

thanks for being my guinea pig.

And that's what happened. I was going to write a review, but I was too laz- *ahem* busy. I was too busy. Yeah, that works. Too busy.

Kat.

St. Patrick's Day.

Firstly I want to apologize for not blogging in FOREVER.
Things have been busy.
Which really means I have recently discovered computer games and have become obsessed.

Anyway, today is St. Patrick's Day just in case you haven't noticed the drunk people running around wearing shirts that say "KISS ME I'M IRISH."
And as a wee lassie with Irish blood coursing through her veins, I have a few problems with this holiday.

FIRSTLY, THE STUPID PINCHING THING. If I didn't have green sweatpants that I sleep in, this morning would have consisted of people pinching me and me punching them back. Seriously guys, cool it with the green. It's stupid and juvenile to look for an excuse to pinch someone in the colors of clothes that they wear.

SECONDLY, THE GREEN FOOD. Green is not an appetizing color. There is a reason that Sam I Am had to convince that guy in the weird hat to eat green eggs and ham. It's just plain weird. So please stop dying everything green. My food thanks you.


THIRDLY, JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE IRISH DOES NOT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO GET STUPIDLY DRUNK. For some reason, Irish people think that they have a get-out-of-drunk-jail-free card on St. Patrick's Day and they take advantage of this.

All that being said, I had a pretty nice St. Patrick's Day. I went to this party that some friends of my parents throw every year and we all sat around a fire and sang Irish songs and sipped beer in their case and ginger ale in mine. And I just got home at like 11:30. Which is UNHEARD of for a homeschooler. It was also Sharkie's birthday today and I know Whaleton spent a lot of time making it a great day for her.

Cheers!
Kat

Mythbusters: Extroverts Edition

Because I did an introverts version, I felt like I had to do an extroverts version as well for the equality of the  'troverts.

I have to say, I feel bad for extroverts. Not for actually being extroverts, I kinda wish I was one because it would make going to parties much easier. No, I feel bad because they get a bad rap. Allow me to illustrate....

 

And if you Google "Extroverts are" some of the results are:

Extroverts are annoying

Extroverts are stupid

Extroverts are idiots

Seems like the stereotypes for both extroverts and introverts are blown out of proportion. I wonder what would happen if we just excepted everyone as who they are and not try to put them in a box....

Pshhhh... That will never happen. I'm an idiot for even thinking of it. Moving on.

Because I am not an extrovert, I Googled "extrovert myths" and asked some close extrovert friends what is the hardest part about being an extrovert.

And the results are in.....

MYTH 1 "Extroverts can't be alone."

Again, extroverts are just people who gain energy from being around other people. This doesn't mean that they can't be alone. Everyone needs to be alone sometimes, the extrovert included. Just because they want to spend time with people and this makes then energetic and happy, doesn't mean that it's physically impossible for them to be alone.

MYTH 2 "All extroverts are outgoing."

Again this all boils down to understanding that extroverts feel energetic around people. They are natural performers. This DOESN'T mean that they are always outgoing or even are outgoing at all. You can love being in a crowd without loving talking to the crowd.

MYTH 3 "Extroverts don't have feelings."

HAHAHAHA. No. Go sit in your room and think about what you just said.

MYTH 4 "Extroverts are self absorbed."

I'm sorry...WHAT?

I'm just gonna pretend like I didn't hear this because honestly this shocked me when I was told that this is an actual problem that extroverts have. You WISH you had their confidence in public places.

MYTH 5 "Extroverts need introverts and introverts don't need extroverts."

Extroverts need introverts and introverts need extroverts. We all need each other. Unless you're Batman. Then you don't need anybody. Especially parents. Was that going too far?

MYTH 6 "Extroverts have endless energy when around people."

Everyone needs sleep. Extroverts included.

Well I hope I cleared up some of the extrovert myths. Seriously guys.... Just stop with the whole "assumptions" thing. And as Ellen DeGeneres says, “You should never assume. You know what happens when you assume. You make an ass out of you and me because that's how it's spelled."

Kat

Mythbusters: Introvert Edition

I think it's fair to say that there is something of an introvert craze that is sweeping the internet. I have seen countless articles, posts and whateveryoucallbuzzfeedthingys that support this hypotenuse. (Really just Buzzfeed things, I'm kinda addicted to it.)

Example A: 27 Problems Only Introverts Will Understand

Example B: 23 Times Tumblr Told The Truth About Being An Introvert (3, 9, 14 are ridiculously accurate though.)

Example C: 9 Things Introverts Secretly Love

Example D: 21 Things That Will Never Make Sense To Introverts

I could go on....

The point is, introverts are "in." And as a person who VERY much identifies as an introvert, there are a few things that I would like to clear up.

MYTH 1 "Introverts don't like people."

Yeah no. This isn't true at all and in fact it's a pretty rude assumption. Introverts get energy by being alone. They recharge their batteries when sitting in their rooms all alone reading, tumblring, sipping tea, and thinking. This doesn't mean they don't like people! While it's true that some introverts are the kind that just seriously don't like people, in general introverts can be friendly and very good friends because of their sensitive and empathetic disposition.

MYTH 2 "Introverts don't like going to parties and other social events."

I, for one, love parties and other social events and it kinda hurts when people plan things and then don't invite me and then I see tons of pictures all over social media and they can't stop talking about it. As hard as it may be for you to understand, sometimes I really can't make it to a party because of other things! I'm not making excuses! There is one thing though, introverts don't tend to go to parties unless there are at least 4 of their friends. If they go to a party where they know like one or two people that means that they are really committed to someone at said party. Or there are going to be cute boys because I mean, c'mon! We are shy, not asexual!

MYTH 3 "Introverts are depressed."

Again this is just completely untrue. Depression isn't a thing that you "develop", its medical issue. It affect extroverts and introverts alike.

MYTH 4 "Introverts always want to be alone."

 

So this one is true and false. While we like to be alone for long periods of time, this doesn't mean that mean that we like to be alone all the time. I for one, love it when people reach out to spend time with me.

MYTH 5 "Introverts don't like talking."

Sometimes this is true. But again, we just like alone time to recharge, not to completely avoid people. I don't like talking when there are a lot of other people in the conversation because I feel awkward. But get me alone and I can't stop talking.

I hope I've cleared up any myths and misconceptions about introverts.

Cheers!
Kat